Tuesday, June 9, 2009

my fear has come true...

Bridget called me earlier today. She said she had to tell me something. I knew what was coming. She is seeing someone...and has been for a "few" months. In my heart, I already knew. Even when others thought that might be happening, I strongly defended her (and my life with her). I don't think it was going on when we were still together, but most likely at the end, when Bridget had already checked out. Even though I am doing so well on my own and making a wonderful life for me and the girls, this still sucks. It breaks my heart and hurts my soul. Even though not a week goes by that I don't say, well at least I don't have to deal with that anymore...it solidifies that this is really over. The goals we had and the future we planned for is gone. The tiny hope I kept in my pocket of us being a happy family of 4 is gone.

17 years of a life together and now she is with someone else...I can't even fathom dating or bringing someone new in my life. But once again, we are so very different - neither is better or worse, just different.

18 comments:

  1. Ooops. "The Coyotes" was me. lol.

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  2. Oh sweetie I'm so sorry *hug*

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  3. so much love to you, Dina.

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  4. I'm really sorry, Dina. Big hugs!

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  5. I'm so sorry Dina :( Much love coming your way *hug*

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  6. Oh Dina, I'm so sorry. *hugs*

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  7. Hang in there!!! Time and prayer heals all wounds.

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  8. When the time is right... there is SOMETHING out there that is even more amazing than all you hoped & planned for. I KNOW that because you deserve it. No doubts.

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  9. I can't imagine. I'm so sorry. You're such a strong person. I know this and I've never even met you. Big hugs. :)

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  10. Praying for Peace for you and praying that now you can truly move on and devote ALL your time and energy to you and the girls not holding back even a milisecond of time to think about anything else! Sending love and higs your way! BTW: B-day party this summer? When?

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  11. I'm so sorry, Dina. I know this must be very difficult for you. You are loved by so many people! *hugs*

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  12. Dina, I don't know you except in Blogland, but my heart still goes out to you. Change is always hard and I think this is the hardest type of change. You are very obviously a strong person though, and I think you will adapt and become stronger in the process. Thankfully you have your girls to keep you focused on the good things in your life. I'm thinking about you.

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