my fear has come true...

Bridget called me earlier today. She said she had to tell me something. I knew what was coming. She is seeing someone...and has been for a "few" months. In my heart, I already knew. Even when others thought that might be happening, I strongly defended her (and my life with her). I don't think it was going on when we were still together, but most likely at the end, when Bridget had already checked out. Even though I am doing so well on my own and making a wonderful life for me and the girls, this still sucks. It breaks my heart and hurts my soul. Even though not a week goes by that I don't say, well at least I don't have to deal with that anymore...it solidifies that this is really over. The goals we had and the future we planned for is gone. The tiny hope I kept in my pocket of us being a happy family of 4 is gone.

17 years of a life together and now she is with someone else...I can't even fathom dating or bringing someone new in my life. But once again, we are so very different - neither is better or worse, just different.