Monday, September 28, 2009

call me crazy...

but I just decided today to walk the Dallas White Rock Half Marathon in December!

Details to follow (as soon as I figure them out LOL)...

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

time to put on your big girl panties...and deal with it!

I have that as my avatar on my mom's board - I like it. It rings true for so many things, especially for me, right now.

I am tired of complaining about how life isn't fair, I am tired of whining about how I have to do EVERYTHING, I am tired of being the martyr. I don't really think I am a martyr, but you know what I mean.

No, life isn't fair, and yes, I do have to do most things because I am the mom and I care for my 2 daughters.

So, with that said, I am having a rough time right now, at this moment in time. But I am going to work it out and get through this. I am going to be strong and find a solution, not keep adding to the problem.

My list includes:
~finding a way to get back into therapy - it is cost prohibitive right now, but I think I really need it
~start on supplements for anxiety/moodiness
~get the house settled and organized for smoother morning and evening routines
~set up treadmill to get some exercise - which would probably help with the anxiety and moods ;)
~finally work on a budget
~find time for meditation, work on forgiveness (both of others and myself)

Yeah, that should keep me busy for a while...ha ha!

Friday, September 11, 2009

quick post...

Well, Ava has been in school for 3 weeks now ~ all seems to going well. But she is not a morning person and she likes to take her time doing her work...can't blame her, I am the same! LOL but we definitely have some adjustment period for both us!

The girls are with Bridget this weekend - I have a couple of fun things planned and then hope to really tackle my house. I am borrowing my brother's hand sander so that I can start on my furniture painting!

I am struggling with our schedule ~ we get home too late and I feel like I am constantly driving. Something has to give soon - I just don't know how or what??? And I don't like the chaotic schedule for the girls - they need to have some down time with me at night. Still brainstorming and trying to find what will work best...aside from me winning the lottery which is my first choice and make all this a moot point! Ha Ha Ha!!!

I am also trying to put things in perspective and realize priorities.
I am thinking of my Uncle Andy and how the family is still struggling with him being gone.
I am thinking of Gretchen and can't believe it has been a year since she passed.
I am thinking of my beautiful sister in law Jeanette and keeping the faith that she will stay strong and the cancer is gone for good.
I am thinking of all the things that were supposed to be and what they are now.

I am grateful and thankful for my life and those in it ~ just need to remember it ;)