I have been feeling sad the past couple of days. But in my usual way, I have kept myself VERY busy and not dealt with it too much. Bridget picked up the girls today and it all hit me. I just kind of wandered around the house and felt sad. I decided to get out of the house for a bit and get some fresh, albeit HOT, air. I did a little retail therapy, which really needs to stop. Even if it is at Dollar Tree and Big Lots, it still adds up! But anyway, then I came home and worked on straightening up a couple of rooms, but it was still gnawing at me. So I put on my walking shoes and headed out to the trail behind my house (yes, right behind my house - absolutely NO excuse for not walking). No one was out there. There was a nice breeze and I could hear the different conversations and noises as I passed the houses. I let myself relax and just think about the moment. I noticed the bunnies hopping across the my path. I listened to the birds singing in the trees. I thought about how I am able to do this. I am able to move on and be happy with my life. I will not be guilty for my relationship ending. I was one part of the equation. I am working on forgiving myself and forgiving Bridget. I don't know which one is harder.
But I feel good at this moment ~ my head is clear and I feel able to take the next step, both figuratively and literally. I am going to walk again tomorrow and I am going to move on.
2 hours ago