yikes ~ 2 weeks since my last post!

See what happens when you turn 42??? LOL

Things are going well, I think. I feel pretty scattered most of the time but only because I have so much I want to get done and not enough time. But everything will get there in time...I need to just slow down and enjoy the process.

The girls love this house and so do I. It feels so amazing to stop and look around and know that this is "home". My family came over today and I loved having them here. I have a crazy relationship with my parents and brothers. But today, I really enjoyed them and was happy to have them here.

I am also having some mixed feelings about Bridget. We talked last week and I felt like she finally heard me and what I was trying to express to her about some of our issues these past 17 years. It felt good to get it all out and really be heard. She helped me load up some stuff and take it to the house. When we left each other, we hugged for a long time and I started crying. It felt so final.
She brought dinner over on Wednesday and we had a good visit. She also brought breakfast this morning and we went shopping for new carseats for Ava. When she left, she hugged me and said she missed me. I told her that I missed her too - and I do. I don't know what will happen in the future. There definitely needs to be a lot of work for us to have a healthy relationship. Maybe time away will truly make us appreciate each other and want to be together again. And if not, at least we can have a good relationship for the girls.