my friend is having another giveaway!

I love her stuff and her site is awesome too :)

http://bagbybunch.blogspot.com/2009/05/another-giveaway.html

two quotes that I really like...

"to the world, you may be just one person; but to one person, you may be the world (anon)"

"every ending leads to a new beginning"


Good to remember...


Happy Friday!! :)

a little success...

Weight Watchers weigh in last night = down 2.6 lbs!! yippee!
My total is 3lbs since 4/22. :)

Bridget met me after the meeting to drop off the girls. They had a couple of nights with her and gave me a little break. I missed them but enjoyed my time off. We had a nice dinner at Chili's - Melody joined us too. Bridget and I are getting along and it feels good.

I am settling into my new life ~ I finally feel like I can breathe and relax a little. I was on the go so much the past few months. Now I am ready to make our house a cozy and comfortable place filled with friends and family and memories. I am looking forward to finding my groove and enjoying my favorite things again.

A huge thank you to all my amazing friends who keep showering me with support and love. I am forever grateful *love*

check out this giveaway on a friend's blog...

very cute pendants!

http://bagbybunch.blogspot.com/2009/05/my-first-giveaway-scrabble-tile-pendant.html

smells and memories...

I am cooking a meal for my wonderful friend Stacey ~ she just had a beautiful baby boy Christopher Michael.

It is Pioneer Woman's Chicken Spaghetti. One thing to know about me...I love everything about food and cooking and tools to cook with ~ I even love to read cookbooks for pleasure! But I don't think I am a very good cook. So it is a big deal when I cook and accept the possibility of the person not liking it! ha ha

Anyway, I was sauteing the onion and bell pepper and thought about how it is one of my favorite smells. Then a memory hit me...

I had an apartment in Euless when Bridget and I got together. I loved that little place. It was so quiet and since it was upstairs, I could leave the windows open. I had a meal that I used to cook all the time that included bell peppers and onions. I remembered the first time I cooked for Bridget - it was the beginning of the relationship and I was scared of what was happening. Scared to let myself fall in love with someone and feel so vulnerable. I liked being alone. I liked my routine. But I knew that I was also searching for something that was missing in my life.

So here I am, again in my own little place, alone (for the next couple of nights anyway) and feeling a little scared and vulnerable. But I am stronger now and I know what it feels like to open yourself up and let someone love you and to love them back. No matter what happens, I am forever grateful to Bridget for that.

good weekend...

So I thought I would write a happy post after my downer one last week :)

I had a great weekend. Nothing spectacular, but I enjoyed it.

I had a fun Pampered Chef party at my place, enjoyed great company and a yummy dessert!
My girls had fun with the kids that came and it wore them out, which is always a plus.
We had terrible thunderstorms for the rest of the day and it was wonderful to just stay home and have nowhere to go.

Sunday, we went to a Rylie's birthday party at a gymnastics center. My girls were so shy and moody for the first 30 minutes. Once they warmed up, it was time to go to the party room. Zoe loved jumping on the trampoline floor. I am going to see about classes there. I think they would both enjoy it. I met Jennifer and Rylie for the first time - and I love them both. They are both very funny and outgoing. I hope to spend more time with them.

Today, I packed up the girls' stuff for them to stay with Bridget for a couple of nights. Ahhh, I get the next 2-3 nights to myself. I am giddy with excitement. Maybe I will FINALLY take a bath in my fabulous tub and look out the skylight at the stars ~ with a glass of the wine that Tracey brought me ;)

Happy Monday, ya'll~

I need a break...

...seriously I am absolutely worn out ~ physically, emotionally, mentally.

I am feeling overwhelmed right now and not doing a good job with anything.

I feel like I am not being a good friend to others who need support right now, I dont feel like a good mom to my girls and I don't feel like I am being good to myself. ugh...just need to get it out.

I am happy today is Friday - I need the weekend.

I am also weaning off my meds (with dr approval this time) and I am unsure if it is the right thing or not. I want to try something a little more natural but wonder if it is really enough for right now. I am the biggest supporter of meds/therapy, but I can't help but hate the idea of HAVING to be on something.

I know once I settle into a routine with the girls and the house, it will be easier. Right now, everything seems so scattered and I am constantly disappointed in others not following through.

In other news, I made my first mortgage payment today ~ only 359 more to go! LOL